Lately I've had a lot of time to do some people watching and I always seem to ask myself the same question. What drives people to do what they do? Sometimes I place judgment upon others that I do not know based on how I perceive them. This is normal, I realize. Sometimes I wish that there were thought bubbles that would take place while someone is saying something I know they will later regret, or doing something they know they shouldn't be doing. I have a feeling it has something to do with the void that takes place in each of us. It is that aching, hunger or thirst for something that just never seems to be satisfied. Some fill this void by eating, others by lust or bad habits, the list goes on and on. Each person has their own void. Often times what seems to be quite troubling between many people is the judgment that they place on others voids. When we are not content with our lives we slip into thinking that these bad habits will remove us from our current situation, this is not true and ultimately everyone knows this is not true, it's just a temporary relief from our current state of lacking.
Now, I'm not saying that I have it all figured out, I'm literally writing this after feeling so sorry for myself earlier today and taking my frustration to all the wrong places. All I'm saying is that I know how it feels to think of everyone's life is so much better than yours and to see all the negatives and nitpick and question and just plain wonder how you got to a certain point in your life. We don't look towards the future and think "I would really like to be an alcoholic by the time I'm 25 and still be working at the same job I hate". No one actually thinks that way, we have big plans and bright futures, so what gets in the way? I think it is best summarized as our day to day lives. If we wander through the days without much conviction and let others affect the way we think and feel, next thing we know another day has passed and we feel like failures. But this is a false thought. We aren't created to be failures, we were put here to do what is placed in our hearts.
We all may have voids but we also all have passion. A passion for something that we know we were created for. I would like to quickly share that I am in that awkward stage in life where I have a degree but am questioning what it is I am supposed to do as a career. I have many dreams, ideas, and thoughts that I would love to make happen but often times I let small daily distractions rob me from my pursuit. This may not fully make sense to you, dear reader, but in my head all the dots are connected here. Could it be that these distractions lead to the voids that rob us of our passion?
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